Simply Evil V2.0 Purple Passion

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

life is going to hell. end of story.

Bitched at 2/28/2006 4:19:50 pm by your master, Topher
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Sunday, January 15, 2006

I broke every one of my rules for her
and even though it failed
I'd do it again in an instant
because in my mind and in my heart
I fully believe it was worth it
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Bitched at 1/15/2006 9:48:06 pm by your master, Topher
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

New Year

Miss me?

Had my tonsils and adnoids raped from my throat December 8th, Nearly died like 4 times in recovery cause I stopped breathing automaticly so I had to be forced to stay awake and reminded to breathe. Hopefully that'll fix my apnea issues.

Christmas was a bit thin this year but still good.

The 7th will mark 2 years of this site being open. Nice. I'm shocked I've not abandoned it yet to be honest. I do update my GJ more often tho.

I've got a girl situation that's pretty cool. Not officially going out yet but it's all good. She's one of the few things keeping me happy right now. I missed happiness. Not like it's lasting. Outside of her everything is kinda hellish.

Bitched at 1/4/2006 5:33:01 pm by your master, Topher
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

I'm crashing. I don't know when I'll finally hit the ground but when I do it'll be in a flaming heap and it won't be good at all. Only a matter of time.

Bitched at 12/6/2005 6:56:43 pm by your master, Topher
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Thursday, November 24, 2005

Thanksgiving `05

I know last year I had a nice little meaningful entry last year about being thankful but to be honest, this year I've gotten the proverbial kick in the sack so excuse me for being a miserable little fuck and not being thankful for much. All I've got is my friends. The few close ones that stick by my side through it all.

Bitched at 11/24/2005 6:23:01 am by your master, Topher
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

You'd be surprised how much someone cares when they don't look it.

Really surprised.

Bitched at 11/15/2005 7:08:13 pm by your master, Topher
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Thursday, November 10, 2005

Crack

I'm starting to break. Slowly but surely it's happening again. Why do I keep forgetting I'll get like this? Why do I keep thinking that one year will be any better than the last? Why do I lie to myself and think I'm better and past everything?

Bitched at 11/10/2005 8:18:01 am by your master, Topher
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Monday, October 31, 2005

Memorys

I despise myself.

I keep doing the same shit to myself over and over.
I just took a break from doing it for awhile.

I hate looking at all the pictures from the old camera and early ones with the new one. I keep forgetting that I have attatchments to these photos. That they all mean something. And that there are thoughts that I have stuck with them that will always strike me when I see these photos.

Yes these are happy memorys on the surface. But I've ended up crying over just the sight of these photos. I thought I was past that. I thought I was better than that. I thought I was done with that. I can't believe that I was so wrong. I don't believe what I'm even thinking anymore. I wish I was actually past it.

Bitched at 10/31/2005 5:02:45 am by your master, Topher
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Sunday, October 23, 2005

MSI!!!!!!!!

I wrote that somewhere else and just copied. If I fucked up names or anything, oh well.

The concert was fucking amazing.

We get there and had to wait like, 20 minutes in the rain and have a little trouble cause of our numbers. They take my camera away when I get searched. It sucked but I wasnt going to let it ruin my night.

We go in and some band called Theo and the Skyscrapers was playing. They were ok. Nothing impressive.

After that was an act called Kenny Muhammad- The Human Orchestra. He was basicly a beatboxer. I have to say I was really blown away by this guy. The crowd really wasnt feeling it but I loved it. He was insanely good at what he did. http://www.myspace.com/thehumanorchestra for those interested.

After his act a band caled Suicide City went on. By now my back is killing me sooooooooo bad. I have trouble keeping it straight for long. It was about 7 when they went on (I think). They had an insane pit going. They were a really good. They just had this magic touch that made the crowd feed into their energy so well. I was getting slammed around just being on the edge of the pit.

After that I really start to feel sick. My stomach was killing me. It all got worse.

MSI comes out. They lit that place up. Everybody sang pretty much everything there was to sing during their set. I ended up getting against this mounted drink table for standing food i guess and I had to position myself perfectly to get it between my ribs and hip bone to be safe and not break a rib. The fog machine added to my problems and deff. sent me into an asthema attack numerous times. Even after jumping and singing and everything I could not feel my heart at all. It was scary. I pretty much headbanged every beat of "Planet of the Apes" (If I butchered the title, I don't care, I slept for 5 hours, and have been on my feet most of the past 14 hours) I swear I felt my brain swelling and getting tighter. I deff caused some brain dammage. I got so dizzy. Then any nod caused me to get lightheadded. It got bad. The pit did not make it any easier. Some jerkoff had a spiked bracelet or something and scraped my arm pretty bad. It was raised up a bit and you saw the mark. Not much more. Annie and Kaitlyn both asked if I wanted to go outside for air. I said "No fucking way. I might die right here tonight but there is no way I'm fucking missing any of this show." At the end of the set Lyn Z pretty much walked over the crowd. She stuffed her bass in the rafters and grabbed them for support and the people were pretty much a support for her the whole way across the crowd. Then I turn for a second and shes gone. IDK where the hell she went but damn.

Imidiately after the lights went up I went to the bar and bought a gatoraid. It was $4 but I really needed it. I don't think it was around more than 25 seconds. After that I went and got a CD from Suicide City and a Shirt. Got 3 of the guys to sign the CD. I got to the MSI merch booth and the shirt I want is $25. I only had $20. I search to find anyone I know. I found Allie and Ian. I beg for 5 and he finally digs it up for me. I kiss him in excitement and run off. Get the shirt and try to get closer to Jimmy. No luck. I get pulled off by Nicky cause our ride is waiting. I pick up my camera.

We go to Nickys. I take some pics cause she got her self signed. Then we went to the diner for some food. Then. Home again.

The only real dissapointments:
Bring The Pain was just Jimmy holding his mic to a boom box playing it and the crowd singing.
No MSI autographs.
Near death experience.
I didnt have enough time to get to Jimmy to get a kiss for a dollar :(

Bitched at 10/23/2005 2:17:23 am by your master, Topher
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Saturday, October 22, 2005

MSI TODAY!!!!

FUCKING HELL YEAH!!!!!! I'M GOING TO SEE MSI IN 14 AND A HALF HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!

Bitched at 10/22/2005 1:32:31 am by your master, Topher
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